Genesis

The genesis of phun girls began with a microdosing journey I started back in the winter of 2019. I knew I had one month left of my anti-depressant before my insurance ended and I also knew I couldn’t go cold turkey—I had in the past to my own mental and emotional detriment and I was afraid to go down that road again.

I had been taking a 20mg SSNRI capsule for several years. When I realized I had only one month left, I started opening the capsules and counting the beads inside so I could taper from 20mg to 15mg to 10mg to 5mg to 0mg over the course of two and half months. I was living in a new state and didn’t have a doctor yet, so I did this on my own, which probably wasn’t the best idea, but it was my only option at the time.

Yes, the end of my insurance prompted the tapering process, but I was also tired of being numb and disconnected from the full range of life’s emotions. Plus, I once had a physician tell me that I’d always be on an anti-depressant, which lit a fire in me to one day at least try to prove her wrong. If I failed, so be it, but I knew I had to at least try because the fullness of my life depended upon it.

As I started the painstaking process of counting what looked like the sprinkle beads of a pharmaceutical cupcake to make and take my custom SSNRI capsules, I began microdosing psilocybin every third day. As someone who has ridden the terrifying tsunami that is anti-depressant cessation, I can honestly say that the only reason I was able to transition smoothly off of my SSNRI was because of psilocybin. I never once fell into a pit of despair; I never once found myself sobbing uncontrollably for no reason; I never once felt like I wanted to stop living. I still had moments of social anxiety, but I began to experience a joy and lightheartedness that I had forgotten existed.

Yes, I still struggle with social anxiety and the occasional bout of depression, and perhaps I always will, but psilocybin has created connections in both my mind and life that have helped me smile even on the darkest of days. A family member recently commented on my microdosing psilocybin, “You are a happier version of you. Not that you were noticeably unhappy before, but I can tell how much happier you are now.”

So now that I’ve seen the psilocybin light, why bother creating phun girls? The greatest joy in life is not the act of gaining knowledge; it is the act of sharing knowledge, and then evolving to be something better together because of it.

After having spent countless hours researching psilocybin to find a path forward for myself, it is my hope that phun girls can provide an access point for those in search of information, those in search of the “phun” in fungi, and those who wish to smile again, even if it’s only for the briefest of moments because that first smile is just the beginning.

Information found on phungirls.com is not a substitute for conversations that are best had with your healthcare and wellness providers. Psilocybin isn’t a panacea and there’s no one-size-fits-all dose, but it is our mission to shine the psilocybin light for those who want to learn and those who want to have phun again. And when you purchase phun girls mushroom merchandise, you support our mycological mission of sharing mush love through mushroom merchandise that makes people smile.